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April 09, 2005
Offline Annie, meet online Annie
Ying and I accompanied Holly to D's birthday party over in Chinatown. I miss Chinatown and the convenience of having nearly everything within walking distance. It was too bad that Ying and Holly both decided to wear heels and it was windy out, which meant walking was limited.
The whole Chinatown night scene was...interesting. I chatted with some new characters, since all my inhibitions were dissolved in alcohol. I was particulary interested in the paths everyone took post graduation. What people studied compared to what they were doing at the moment and how nothing really aligned or made sense but there was that...struggle if you will, to do something.
At one point, I got into a discussion about the meaning slash purpose of life with the one guy that H affectionally referred to as THE sexual harasser (something to do with groaning and the word titties). All jokes aside, the conversation made me sad because at this point, I haven't a nice and tidy theory, explanation or answer (it's not about being happy). I physically had to stop conversing, take a deep breath and wait until that feeling subsided. At which point, the person I was speaking with asked, "Are you okay?" to which I gave the standard "Yea." reply. Because I wasn't going to go into a discussion about how f'ed up I was feeling at the moment, even if there was a Harvard psychology graduate nearby...
The meetup also got me to thinking about the clash of online versus offline worlds, as the majority of the people at the party were writers or knew of one another through writing programs, and there were references made to blogs and/or profiles on Zenga, Friendster and Livejournal. But that creation of a community online and the realization of personalities offline...yea.
I'm blabbing and my buzz is gone. The clock's struck 5:30am, and my body has finally clicked into sleep mode.
Posted by Annie at April 9, 2005 05:36 AM